Being First in Siblings

Being first in siblings was very hard sometimes. I try to not crying while at the same time I wanna cry because of something made me sad. I try to look good, even I'm not good looking. I try to achive some good things, even I'm not good at those things. I try to be a good-role-model, even the younger don't want to follow me. I try to be a strong one, even I'm the weakest in my deep heart. I try to always-havin'-money, even at the time I don't have enough money... As a human, I just try.